Until the end of September..this blog shall continue to be abandoned.

Thanks "NESSA" for ur well wishes (: Man, every show on TC has lin feng or lam fung or whatever. Tian Ya Xia Yi (CHan55), Yun Hai Yu Gong Yuan (Chan8), and I just realised the show after Tian Ya Xia Yi is Da Tang Shuang Long Zhuan..which of course has lin feng as the male lead!

I love Tian Ya Xia Yi..(by the way it's a show revolving around doctors and saving lives). It's a very very meaningful show seeing how they perform surgery and how the Dragon City doctors go all out to help their patients. It really made me stop to think if it was possible for me to become to doctor. Then of course, I think it's too late to be a doctor now..cos I haven't went for any hospital attachements or told the teachers I'm interested to be one.

I like Yun Hai Yu Gong Yuan too..cos I seriously think that Shiyi should be with Sheng Nan! I LOVE the last episode k..when Sheng Nan was so determined to kill her master and help Shiyi. She died for him ok! I really thought the last scene was very touching.

Anyway, I keep having super random dreams nowadays. Like one day I can be dreaming of my childhood days, then sec sch friends, then my family, then about teachers etc. So far I've dream of Jasmine, Wenhui pts, Jerilyn fts, some sec sch random memories, my younger bro, daniel chua, chow siew foong......

Yesterday night I was lying on the bed thinking about emo stuff again. If I ever had a chance to live through my teenage years, would I still choose to be as crazy to stay back every alternate fri to do a nice piece of zuo wen for wang lao shi, and end up being e last to leave everytime. Would I still choose to head for home sweet home rather than hanging out at Heartland Mall with the people who cross e road to go home while I don't. Would I still choose the paths I previously chose, would I attempt to do the things I longed to do but didn't have the courage to do.

I enjoyed my birthdays cos my friends really shower me with sincere love. I appreciated Valentine's Day despite e whole lot of us being single, cos we still show our love for one another but making small little gifts and cards.

But there certainly were times I regretted not pampering myself with occasional indulgence, despite the fact that I knew, and still know they are bad. If I had been more proactive towards certain things, I probably wouldn't be what you see me as today.

Nevertheless, perhaps it's good that things have turned out like that, I am what I am today. Because I can't imagine the other me that I would have become. The past regrets that no other soul knows, let them be buried in the sand and be washed away by the tides. The past sacrifices that were unnecessary, the many tears that I've cried in vain, let them too be blown away by the wind and be cast into the depths of the sea.

If I really had a chance to re-live, I promise I'll treasure more, cherish more, give more, and expect less.